let me whine.

Had a lot of "moments of silence" this week. You know those moments wherein the world seems to go still, and a stream of thoughts gush freely in and out of your brain. Realizations, both simple and profound, stare are your face like a silent companion.... and i saw Unhappiness gaping at me.

By large, I'm not unhappy. Life in general is GOOD. It's my job that's out of place. I've been working in the same company for about a year and 4 months now. And what have I become? A slave. We've all become slaves complete with all the ball and chains (Think AMISTAD: "We want free!").. What's even more frustrating is that the more i want to get ouf of this, the more i find myself staying... probably because it's a cutthroat world out there and it has become convenient enough for me to hang about in this familiar part of the Amazon with the beasts lurking around.

If patience is a virtue, then i'm one virtuous fuck. If there's one thing i got out of this job it would have to be PATIENCE.... patience from all the FREAKS out there thriving on tomfoolery to fill out the void of their everyday futile lives... patience from all the egocentric policies that have been absolutely fault-finding rather than encouraging... patience from THE trigger-happy sentinel, playing the roulette, trying to decide who's next in line to drop dead.

Ahh, what a wonderful lesson to succumb to. Now my world is brighter.... REALLY.